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Wednesday, 06 April 2011

Back for the very first time

Hey guys (and gals too).

It's been a long while since I've written anything. I've missed writing, it's therapeutic. So I've decided to come back and give it a go. Just a disclaimer. These are just thoughts and feelings. I'm here to share them. It doesn't mean I'm right or wrong. Maybe we agree or don't. This isn't really for you anyway. But for those reading, please feel free to share your thoughts and opinions. This isn't a place to judge grammar and spelling. These will be brain dumps and mindless ranting for the most part, so deal. =0p We're all open minded enough to not take it as a personal attack (I hope).

I've been a busy guy lately. Graduated from CSU this past December and it feels good to accomplish a goal I set. Good luck to all my friends who have graduated and to those who are about to. I was lucky enough to have a full time position offered to my after my internship. All I can say is that I couldn't be happier. I have the opportunity to work with a great group of people. I can take a little bit away from each one of them to make myself a better business person and individual. From what I gather not many people can say that they love going to work everyday. Is it the ideal job I've dreamed of, no. But I'm young and in it for the experience and to learn.

On another note. I'm in a huge need of change. "Tired of myself, tired of this town." I'm just ready for a get away. Thank god I'll have one coming up in a few weeks here. I'm hoping that it will allow me to get out of my mind for awhile, just hang out and be a dood, with nothing to worry about.

I typically tend to over think things. But I'm one of those people who lay awake at night over-analyzing situations. Where what has happened to common decency? I try to be a good person. I actually take the time to think out my thoughts and actions (for the most part). Are people that ignorant or just that rude? Maybe both? Really, it's not all that hard to take a step back and do the right thing. "It's not what you do when people are looking, it's what you do when no one is looking"- don't know where I stole this from, but food for thought. And Truth. I'm sick of selfish people.

Two things (or people) have been on my mind lately. One from the past and one from the present. To the first I'd just like to apologize. "I tried to be perfect, it just wasn't worth it." I was young and thought I knew everything. I made mistakes and I'm sorry. It might be too little too late and I know I've told you I'm sorry, but it just never felt like you took it to heart. And on to the next one. What we had was brief but I thoroughly enjoyed it. I felt like I could actually be myself and that you were okay with it. If I had to describe it in one word- Awesome. But it was just bad timing and I know things are a little bit awkward now. I want nothing but the best for you and I sincerely hope we cross paths again.

That's all I've got for now. I'll be back at some point. I'll leave you with two songs to check out. Music is something that connects with people on another level. I'll share it because who knows what It may do for you some day. We all have days when we can just turn on music to get us through. For me it's mostly about lyrics. I found these songs fitting. I've even made it easy for you to listen.

The Starting Line- Best of Me
Sum41- With Me

Live long and prosper.

Tuesday, 18 August 2009

Re-up

Once again, haven't posted in awhile. I have so much going on with working two jobs, getting ready for an internship, and all the other day to day bs. It sucks. On the bright side school starts in a week. Hopefully that's the bright side. At least it will be a change of pace.

So this weekend was kind of on a different pace. No downtown club or bar scene. Friday night hung out with one of my good friends Meg. We met up with some people from work up at Loco. Had a few drinks there and drama unfolded, so we went over to the Time Warp. Came home about 2.

Then Sat morning I got up and took my car for an estimate on the damages from vacation. They have to remove my roof and put a new one one. Grand total is around $2500. I was supposed to go to the Italian festival with Greg and Emily but never made it there. I ended up going to a family get together all day. Started off at Grandma's house. Usually it's boring over there, like all family parties. Lately tho, family parties aren't that bad. Had some good food and good convos. Met some cool new people from the other side of the family and had a really good time. Waterballon fights, food fights, pool party, and a lot of laughs.

Sunday just really sat around. Bought my school books online. Cost $445 and I still need two more books. Then I met up with an old high school friend for some drinks. We went to the 3rd place. The bartender told us about $1 drafts so we had some of those. She never charged us for them tho, which was cool. However, we made her pay for her mistake. We dashed without paying or leaving a tip. Kinda felt like a jerk, but oh well.

Last night was low key. Just sat around the house. Watched a poor quality edit of Fast& Furios. Had one of those nights where I was loosing my mind. Kinda for no reason, even tho there was one. It was stupid. I see that now. Just get caught up in things sometimes. It happens. Talked it out with and old grade school buddy and high school friends oddly enough.

Can't wait for the weekend. Work double shifts all week. Same old same old. Tryin to keep on keepin on.

Its better to burn out than to fade away..

Tuesday, 11 August 2009

Currently
Sex on Fire
By Kings of Leon
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Respect

So, long time without writing. I was on vacation in Hilton Head,SC. Everything went pretty well except for the first 15 hours. Five minutes after leaving my house, I get pulled over for doing 35 in a 25. Awesome. That will cost me $150. Then, outside Virginia my car decides to overheat or some bullshit. Awesome again. Can barely do over 50 mph for the next 450 miles. Then finally make it to SC. Killing time waiting to check in at resort and it starts raining. It was raining at check in time so I decided to pull into an unloading area (WITH A VERY LOW CLEARANCE). No joke. car gets stuck in unloading area. Hit a sprinkler head bending it 1/4 of an inch. $1400 dollars in damages! Great! Luckily, insurance is covering repairs on my car and at resort for $500.

Moving on.

Almost time to go back to school. Week and a half. Loans are not in yet. Also need to buy books. So much money to be spent on top of everything that happened last week. But at least, I hope, to no longer be working 65 hours a week. Also, had another interview for an internship on campus. Hope for the best.

Next Topic. What I really wanted to write about all along. Respect. It's something people are always preaching about. It is something that I really didn't understand until recently.I truly respect very few people, but show respect to many.

There are two people in my life I realized I have the utmost respect for. Its not really all that surprising because they are important people to me. And neither of these people will ever read this.

The first is my father. I know, odd right? Don't get me wrong, I have always loved my father, but I think that I am just now starting to understand him. Maybe I'm maturing? Like all fathers he's always been there no matter what. He's worked two full time jobs simultaneously to provide the best for me (I've recently learned how hard this really is and I'm not even providing for a family). And after all these years I'm finally seeing everything he's put into life. He loves my mother dearly. Obvious right? But a love like this you have to live with to understand. A lot has happened between my parents in my life time. Without dragging it out, I can some it up by something he said to be a few weeks ago. I came home from work and he had gone to the Pepperidge Farm Factory to buy cookies. I laughed it off saying "If thats what really makes you happy, the okay." And then he said "I didn't really do it for me. I didn't want to go, but your mother mentioned she really wanted cookies. So I went for her." Going out of his way for some cookies to make someones day...made me think. Then, I got back from vacation and I was having a conversation with my mother. And she off handedly mentions calling my father on her lunch break. She asks how his day is going and he replies "Alright. I have a great wife, two great kids, and a half way decent dog." I'm sure few of you reading this know my father well enough to understand his sense of humor, or just him at all. My dad is pretty laid back. I'm always joking and laughing with him. I love him.

The second is someone I've known for about five years. Almost a second father, even though I never needed one. This man is my ex-girlfriends father. I have had many laughs with anthony. Far too many to count. He's a simple man. He hates going to work but lives for coming home to a cold beer and his family. Oh, and The Ohio State Buckeyes (can't forget!). I've seen the love he has for his family, especially with the troubles they've had recently.We would always sit in the garage talking sports and god knows what else. We would just sit and bs. We also always ended up working on random projects around the house. I didnt mind though. He also just loved listening to music. Very, very, loud music. Led Zeppelin. He was always asking me if I was sleeping over or when I'm coming back over. He has no boys in his family, so he treated me like his son. Which I am so grateful for. I have worked the past two summers with him and every day I would get the "Hey nick buddy, coming over for lunch today?" The answer was always yes, until recently. I'm going to miss this man a lot. I love him. And respect him.

Congrats if you made it through all of this.

Wednesday, 29 July 2009

Ode

So, kinda tired of being asked about the facebook status of losing all respect for a certain someone. Odds are it isn't you and if it were you would know. This was a person I use to hold in the highest regard up until most recently. I watched this person grow, unfortunately for the worst. They became angry and bitter. I no longer am or will associate myself with this individual. Now there are only memories of what this person was to me. I learned long ago not to take this persons words as truth, as I have been caught up in much drama surrounding them. It's sad, but I knew they weren't truthful and let it go for some reason. I tried being nice about no longer associating myself with this individual and they did not respect my wishes. In turn, I said some untrue and hurtful things, but what does it matter since there is no relationship to be had any longer. I am bitter about how they have handled situations lately. I believe they were untruthful and selfish. Perhaps just immature. All in all, I wish them the best, for I am moving on. There will be no communication, no contact, no friendship from here on. Goodbye and good riddance.

I dont care who you've been sleeping with these days
You're outta my hair
It's growing just above my smiling face that I wear
Every night I drink myself to sleep
Not thinking about you
Not thinking about anything at all

Sunday, 26 July 2009

Currently
Ziggy Stardust
By David Bowie
Moonage Daydream
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Its a small world after all!

Well, so much has happened in the past week its ridiculous! Where to begin?

Only four days til vacation. Unfortunately not going to florida it seems. I'm gunna sound like a real ass right now, but (sorry emily) your grandma is a bitch. She said we can no longer stay in her Florida Condo any longer, and decided to tell us a week before we're supposed to leave. Awesome. So we've been scrambling looking for places in FLA,SC, and MD to stay in next week. Everythings expensive or booked. Hope it all works out. I'm sure we'll find somewhere to go.

Roverfest was amazing. I spent a lot of money there. Greg and I alternated buying each other drinks all night. There was probably one of the sexiest girls I'ver ever seen in my life there. She was part of the competition, obv! I obviously went up to her and boldly stated that she is the sexiest thing I've ever seen and wished her the best of luck in the competition. Jim Florentines bit was VERY funny and I fully enjoyed it. DMC (from Run DMC) sucked. Great, he rapped over some tracks, great. All we needed was a bouncing ball to follow the words with. The competition itself was so-so. The flashers in between acts was the best. So many boobies. We left before Saliva came on which I'm bummed about because it would have been a good show. But people were getting really rowdy. On the way up met up with Brian and Jessika and some of her frriends and headed over to Sin night club for the after party. They've got cheap drinks and a trippy bar with strobes and lights everywhere. We stayed until close and I drank and danced my ass of with Jessika's friends April and Dana. Btw, I'm supposed to "stay away from" all of Jessikas friends. Somehow I always end up leaving with all their phone numbers. haha.

Sat I pretty much did nothing until Brian, Jessika, and I went out to the Blind Pig. They were having a fund raiser and had all you can drink for a 10 dollar cover charge. So we drank there til 11 then headed back over to Sin to kill the night. No one really came out Sat night. I like hanging out more in large groups of people. But still was an alright time.

Didn't do much of anything today. Went out looking to ball again but for the second week in a row no one was around. Did meet this one kid Dan tho and it gets interesting from here. We're just shooting around and he asked if I'm up at the park during the week, I tell him no because I work 65 hours a week. He asks where I work at and I tell him Bay and Sweet Basil. He goes, oh i know right where thats at, I'm from Ridgeville and my gf owns a business in Westlake. I'm like, okay hes 26 and his gfs gotta be about the same age. So i ask him what she does and he replies she owns a piano lesson business. SHAM WOW! Sounds way too familiar, my friend John is also dating a girl in westlake who owns a piano business. So I obv ask if her name is Ashley. He of course is like "yea, how'd you know?" So i tell him im pretty sure my friend john is dating her. He wasnt too happy. He said he's been dating her for like 5 years. I know john and ashely have been together for a few months. So I just fill him in a little on what I know. But what are the odds a kid I just met in my neighborhood happens to know/date the same girl my friend is dating? weird...

Also, had a interview for an internship opportunity on thursday. I believe it went really well. I hope they are interested because I'm surely ready to get my foot in the door of my career. Should be hearing from them at some point during the week. Wish me luck.